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hellish as the experience of withdrawal can be, it is important
to realize that there is an end to it.
For
this reason, I have included , here, some of the letters
received from visitors who have gone through the ordeal.
My hope is that they will serve as an inspiration. Add your
own by sending me a quick email.
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At first I attempted to get
off 25 mg/day cold turkey. These triggered some
unpleasant symptoms including:
>Dizziness - I felt light
headed even when sitting down; typically when
lying down I was fine. It is similar to the
feeling that I am about to pass
out except for the blood pressure loss. The
intensity of this sensation
varied. Sometimes I would reach out to balance
myself and other times I
just bumped into/grazed things that I thought
I was not going to contact. I
did not fall or have any other significant stumbles.
I would say that the
dizziness presented enough discomfort through
the day to create fatigue and
disorientation headaches; however, I did not
have any raging headaches
although I took some analgesics which have mitigated
some of the other
symptoms. Oddly enough, having a beer seemed
to mitigate the symptoms.
>Tingling sensation in my
arms and hands - it felt mildly like the
circulation has been cut off and my arms and
hands are "asleep". This was
an intermittent sensation.
>Some auditory sensations
that sometimes I think I hear things that I
determine are not there such as distant chimes
ringing and other noises.
>Unusual number of dreams
that I remembered and fairly intense dreams,
although they were typically normal and pleasant
dreams; I did not have any
nightmares.
>Agitation: my family said
that I was more agitated than normal. One
Friday, I was very irritable and removed myself
from several situations
where conflicts were presented so I would not
lose my cool. I have not
noticed significant mood swings, but seem quicker
to snap and I have been
more impatient.
>Some sleep disturbances.
One Friday night I went to bed and could not
fall
asleep for quite a while even though I was really
tired (too many late
nights watching TV and early mornings off to
exercise). I have had several
times when I took a nap during the day and still
felt general fatigue. In
general, I was able to sleep through the night
when I fell asleep.
I went back on the 25 mg tablet
for a short while until the adverse symptoms
mitigated. It has been over a month since my
last dose of Paxil. I am
nearly completely free of any symptoms at this
point. I weaned myself with
12.5 mg per day for 2 weeks and then 6.25 mg
per day for another couple of
weeks, then 6.25 mg every other day for a couple
of weeks. I still would
have the vertigo and tingling sensations while
cutting down the dosage on
the first days after cutting the dose or the
2nd day of the every other day
regime. The symptoms persisted for a short while
after ceasing altogether.
Once in a while I get a tingling feeling that
I associate with the
withdrawal and periodically the vertigo; these
symptoms are fleeting and
very temporary. Otherwise, I appear back to
"normal" with little of the
agitation felt earlier.
During the period of weaning
off the medicine, I was definitely not as
mentally sharp as I had been while on the medicine.
It took longer to
respond to queries and situations and my memory
was definitely not as good.
Now that the symptoms are abated, I feel much
quicker and with stronger
short term memory. I also felt a lot more fatigued
during this process,
requiring a full night of 8 hours of sleep and
naps a couple of times a day
to recharge.
Although some writers have indicated
that they think that Paxil is a
horrible drug, it really did a lot of good for
me while I was taking it. It
helped me learn some new coping mechanisms that
I expect will stay with me
for the rest of my life. I am much more apt
to process rather than react at
this point, whereas my personality could be
a lot more volatile previously,
often described as moody. I can see how some
people would want to take this
sort of drug in the long term as a boost to
alertness and sociability. As a
confirmed introvert, being on the drug definitely
helped me be more
interactive in social situations and for longer
periods of time than when
not on the medication. From my perspective,
I do not like to be on a
medication longer than I really feel is necessary
and this helped me get
through a tumultuous period in my life. When
I first consulted my physician
to stop taking the drug, he suggested that I
quit taking it cold turkey
which obviously did not work for me. I am not
sure if the symptoms would
have abated in a similar time frame had I continued
along this path.
However, using the weaning method really helped
to allow me to function in
the short term while getting off the drug in
the long term. One thing I do
wish is that the drug makers be a little more
forthright about the potential
symptoms not only of taking the medication but
when you want to stop taking
it.
On the morning of June 15th
I woke up with the expectation of enjoying my
day off with my husband. It is rare that we
both are free on the same day. A few days earlier
I had stopped taking my Paxil due to the side
effects that would not subside. The insomnia
kept me up nightly and my lack of sexual desire
did not promote a healthy, well-balanced relationship.
A couple years prior I had been prescribed celexa
while I was in the service. Upon separating
and thus running out of medication I had barely
if any serious consequences. I have also stopped
taking paxil for a brief period of time as well
without unbearable withdrawal. So the experience
I then proceeded to have did come as quite a
shock. I just did not know. Like I said I had
stopped taking Paxil in hopes of regaining my
life and possibly trying something new. The
first couple days I noticed I was a little more
edgy and maybe moody. But it was day 3 that
I came to realize there was a problem. The previous
night I had the oddest sleep I had ever experienced.
I could not tell most of the time if I was awake
or asleep and the dreams were very vivid to
the point if something fell in my "dream" my
heart would begin to beat fast.Iwasalsodrippinginsweat
at certain points of the night. At the start
of my day as I began to get ready, I began to
hyperventilate and anxiety just shot right thru
me like never before. I was able to regain my
composure and go out to breakfast with my husband.
Afterwards we went shopping at the bookstore.
As I sat at a table skimming a book, anxiety
once again came over me, this time it was uncontrollable.
I frantically looked about for my husband and
when I couldn't find him fear took over my entire
being as tears began to whelm up in my eyes.
Nausea came quickly and I was forced to run
to the stores bathroom. Eventually I was able
to locate him and he got the car and helped
me in. At home I laid down only to have more
of those "dreams" and rest to where I was unable
to know if I was awake or asleep.
When I got up Justus was playing
with my bass guitar and decided to "quiz" me
on the chords. I rambled " E, A,...uh uh" and
then uncontrollable tears came forth. I could
not stop crying, which caused me to hyperventilate
and then came the nausea and vomiting. A bit
later we decided that we could go pick up something
at Wal-Mart and grab a bite to eat. A crowded
Wal-Mart is not the place for someone going
through any kind of withdrawal. Midway through
our shopping quickly became the end of our shopping
I managed to find my way to a bench to sit on
as he checked out. The whole time wanting to
just crawl underneath the bench and die. Again
I was sweating and sweating and then moments
later needed a blanket for the chills. I gripped
my arm so tightly as my arms were crossed that
my dull fingernail marks could still be seen
hours later. We went home and this time I knew
that I absolutely must stay there. The intensity
of the pain I felt is beyond words. Whenever
an attack would come on me all I could manage
to say is "make it stop, make it stop". I think
about and remember all the emotional lows I
have had and even the most traumatizing events
that I have lived through cannot even compare
to the magnitude of the feelings of sadness,
anxiety, fear, confusion and physical discomfort
I was experiencing. Most of the evening became
a blur. I remember lying down on my living room
floor as if to say I give up while I lay there
crying and shaking. I crawled to the bathroom
cause I knew that I would be sick. And then
I could not move from the little ball I had
crawled into, laying on the cold bathroom floor
sweating and coughing. At about 1am, I went
and lie in my bed, simply for the fact that
I knew my husband wouldn't go to bed with me
still up. We had looked on line and found information
regarding paxil withdrawal which stated it was
generally safe to take Tylenol pm in order to
help with muscle tension and sleeping issues.
I would not take it, I have taken it many times
before but just the mere thought of it, made
me break out in a panic attack. I was angry
and wanted to throw everything in sight. Fear
gripped me. I was scared and I didn't even know
what of. I was scared to sleep, I was scared
of any medicine, I was scared to go lay on the
couch. No logical reason for these things but
it was just as a little child is afraid if they
step out of their bed the monster will grab
there leg, I was now consumed with the same
kind of irrational fear. I could hear everything,
the fan, Justus scratching his forehead, the
wind outside. It all seemed so loud. So I cried
out to God in my mind cause I just knew I could
take no more. All I said was I need to hear
you. And then as I lay there I didn't hear or
feel any comforting words but I became a little
less scared to take the medicine that would
help me sleep so I did that. And I also realized
that yes this was too way much and I need to
rewind the process, I then took a Paxil. Not
with the intentions of keeping on this life
sucking drug but understanding that even though
it only took one day to start, it would take
many more to stop. This realization did not
suddenly make everything better. I did continue
to hear an audible noise that did not exist
to which I woke myself with my own voice asking
"what" in response to what I believed was Justus
taking care of the "noise". I then looked over
to find him sleeping. So as I begin this journey
of being free from paxil I can only think "I
wish I would have known.".. It has been about
2 months since I wrote that piece above, since
then I have been able to tamper off paxil and
have been paxil free for about 3 weeks. I still
have an edge but at least I am a functioning
human being once again.
First of all, I was on 25mg
paxil for about 4 and a half months. And like
most people on this web site I was not told
beforehand about the possibility of horrible
side effects if I ever decided to discontinue
use of the drug. And to be completely honest
I did not refer to my doctor before I stopped
taking the pills, and I did it cold turkey.
I would not reccommend that. My main reason
for stopping was the expense and the pills really
didn't do much for me except to make me feel
tired and lazy all of the time, even if I took
them at night. Also, I didn't like the idea
of having to take pills for the rest of my life,
which is something my doctor told me I was going
to have to do to reap the so-called benefits
of the pill. But at the time I was searching
for something/anything to help me with social
anxiety which had begun interfereing with my
career and had forced me to quit several jobs
over the last couple of years. I stopped taking
the pills on Tuesday and on Friday the side
effects kicked in. The first thing I felt were
the electrical zaps. I immediately started researching
sites to get more information and found that
I wasn't alone. The next thing I experienced
was intense nausea every time I ate and an overall
feeling of just being sick and unhappy. I was
miserable for the next two days but then I made
a conscious decision that I would get through
this and I did. It's been exactly one week since
the withdrawals kicked in and I am feeling much
better. The electrical zaps have almost disappeared
completely and I get stomache pains once in
a while but not as often as before. The weird
thing is that I feel better than I did before
I started taking the pills.
I'm still unemployed and almost
completely broke because of it but I am motivated
and have made more progress in the last week
than I have in the last four and a half months
in terms of my job search. I just want to encourage
others to hang in there because the symptons
do go away. Also stay busy, walking really does
help even if you feel sick or the zaps are frequent,
you can do it. Drink lots of water or herbal
teas with no sugar, eat healthy and in small
amounts all day long and read (even on my worst
day when I was using my brain I wouldn't get
those zaps) and write out your feelings in a
journal. Another thing, and maybe the most important
is to think positively and know that this won't
last forever and when it does you will be grateful
for your new found appreciation of being paxil
free. Also prayer and a belief in something
higher than yourself (God or whatever you'd
like to call it) will make all of the difference
in the world. I'll just suggest the book that
helped me get through it and is changing my
life as we speak. It's called The Essential
Ernest Holmes. He founded the science of mind
school of thought (not scientology) which basically
says that we are all responsible for how we
choose to respond to situations in our lives,
good and/or bad. And that it is very important
to know that we are all products of a higher
being and that because of that we are special
no matter what anyone else has done or said
to us, people who know this will always react
to things differently and more positively than
others, we tend to call them arrogant. Its not
about thinking you're better than others its
about knowing that no one is more worthy than
you. It's really a good book. I like it because
it's practical, it makes sense, there are no
judgements or rules to follow and it has helped
me a great deal and will continue to for the
rest of my life. But do whatever you can to
get closer to that higher place no matter what
you believe in, we are all the same, some of
us are just more in tuned with our higher selves
than others. But we are all capable if we change
the way we think, which changes the things we
say and do, which changes our lives. Think negative
and your life is negative, thinking positive
has the same effect. I'm doing my best to work
on that now and forever, old habits do die hard
but I know I can do it.
...I was prescribed 40 mgof
Paxil daily for Panic disorder about a year
ago. Then I was laid off andmy benefits ran
out. What a blessing! I weaned myself off the
evil drug by
cutting it in halfs and then quarters.Although
I didn't really suffer from the brain "zaps",
I did have extremenausea, loss of appetite,
dizziness, tingling in my face and extremities,
chills, sweating... the list goes on, you know
the drill. Reading your
website helped immensely. I felt like I wasn't
alone, like I wasn't going
crazy or just imagining the symptoms. Exercise
helps tremendously. I felt at my worst in the
morning - that's when I hauled myself out of
bed and jogged. It works. The symptoms get better.
The strangest thing is - suddenly my anxiety
is actually better. I thought it would worsen.
When I watch a movie now, the sound is much
clearer, the
colours brighter. I can FEEL again, something
I forgot how to do.
I am 32 and was on Paxil for
3 months for anxiety attacks and had to stop
cold turkey because of the bad reaction I had
to paxil. Like most of everyone else, I have
been through hell as well. I have been off paxil
now for 4 weeks and am doing much better. I
still have the tingling sensations in my head,
face and extremities, occasional dizzy spells,
and feel drunk most of the time. But, I don't
feel like I did!!!! :) I am currently taking
SaM-E and B stress complex and have not had
1 anxiety attack. As much as I hate to admit
this, I seriously wanted to die when I first
got off paxil. I was so ill, thought I was going
nuts, to the point of suicidal thoughts. I have
read alot of the stories and pray for each one
of you all..Just know that IT WILL get better.
I know for a fact that one of the main reasons
I have gotten through this as well as I have
is from your web site. Thank you all again for
sharing yourstories and you for your site..God
Bless
I am a 31 year-old woman. I
was prescribed Paxil (10mg) by my family Dr.
two years ago after complaining of general anxiety.
I have always been a "keyed-up" person,
but that year, there were several other contributing
factors including my wedding, family problems,
ect... The Paxil took a few weeks to alleviate
the symptoms, but once it kicked in, I felt
great. I was calm, cool and collected. I didn't
take my husbands head off at the slightest provocation
and things just didn't seem to get to me anymore.
After two years, like anything else that must
be done daily, being on Paxil began to loose
it's appeal. I had taken up yoga and loved the
idea of relieving stress naturally. My doctor
had not once in those two years discussed when
I should stop, so I decided that the next time
I saw my Dr., I would approach him.
One Thursday evening (11 days
ago to be exact) I realized that I had taken
the last Paxil I had. Friday morning I called
my Dr's office for a refill. When I went to
the drug store that evening, it turned out that
they had never called in the refill. Since I
knew there was no way I'd reach my Dr. until
Monday, I decided to quit then and there. I
was in no way prepared for what was to come.
The first few day were fine. I wasn't until
Sunday afternoon, while hiking with my husband,
that I realized something was very wrong. I
began to feel very nauseous and dizzy. I thought
that maybe I was just hungry, so we went to
grab a pizza after our hike. I wound up eating
just about the whole thing. That evening the
dizziness continues and I began to hear a swooshing
noise in my head. This "swooshing"
would happen every time I moved my eyes and
was very disconcerting. I woke up several time
during the night bathed in sweat. It was awful.
The next day at work, I could barely function.
I was so light headed that I was afraid to leave
my chair. I would break into tears for no apparent
reason and two minutes later be laughing my
self silly. I ate more food that you can imagine.
I just couldn't stop myself. On Tuesday, things
got even worse. I was unable to keep any food
down and the "swooshes" were getting
more and more frequent. I finally decided to
call my doctor and see if he had any advice
as to how to alleviate these symptoms. To my
shock and disgust, my doctor told me that he
had never heard of anyone complaining of these
symptoms having quit Paxil. He reiterated that
the drug was "non-habit forming" and
then had the nerve to tell me that I may have
an inner ear infection. I couldn't believe it.
When I got home that night, I got online and
found this site. Even though my symptoms were
not subsiding, at least I knew that I wasn't
crazy and that I was not alone. It's been 11
days now and I'm beginning to feel a bit better.
I wound up taking the rest of last week off
from work to try to just ride out the symtoms
at home. I went back to yoga yesterday. I just
want to tell everyone that it does get better.
I still hear the swooshes in my head and feel
perpetually "out of it", but I was
able to work today and the nasuea has subsided.
I hope that going forward I will be able to
control my stress and anxiety on my own. I know
that I will neve rtake this drug again. If anyone
had told me that this could happen, I wouldn't
have taken it to begin with. It's just not worth
it.
My doctor weaned me off a 40
milligram dose in four weeks (30 milligrams
daily for one week, 20 milligrams daily for
one week and 10 milligrams daily for two weeks).
He mentioned I might have "vivid dreams."
The withdrawal (the flu) symptoms began in week
three of the above regime. I started having
most of the rest of your list about the time
I ran out of pills. But I was determined to
be off the drug. I survived knowing others had
kicked the Paxil habit, exercise (walking on
a treadmill) and chocolate. Oh yes, and WATER,
WATER, WATER. I usually drank around 64 ounces
of water a day, but I soon was chugging at least
100 ounces a day. When I wasn't drinking water,
I was in the bathroom.
I have already dropped 15 of the 40+ pounds
I gained while on Paxil. I was naseaueated most
of the time, so I wasn't eating much (brown
rice and steamed veggies). What I did eat went
straight through me (the water might have helped).
The weight loss was another thing that kept
me going. After years of watching the scale
go up and up, it was wonderful seeing my clothes
get looser and looser.
It has been some six weeks since my last dose,
I am mostly over the physiological symptoms.
In the past week or two, I have noticed my mood
swings have dipped lower than before (while
on Paxil), which is to be expected. They seem
to be fairly short lived, and chocolate helps.
So does exercise.
I would also like to mention that I quit caffine
cold turkey because the thought of coffee made
me sick to my stomach. I have only been able
to enjoy my morning cup of java in the last
week or so, as long as it's not too strong.
Hi Frank! Friday I couldn't
take it anymore so I took the day off work and
went to the beach. I spent all day walking on
the beach. Walking, walking, walking. I became
obsessed with collecting beach glass (I guess
it was something to focus on). I didn't sleep
too well that night, but listening to the ocean
was nice. (I splurged on an oceanside room at
a B&B). Saturday, back to the beach, looking
for beach glass. I must have walked 10 miles
of beach. Finally drove back home Saturday evening
with a sunburn and aching legs and enough beach
glass to fill a rather large jar. Then around
9 pm Saturday night it hit me. It was like someone
hit a switch. All of a sudden, I felt sleepy.
Really, really sleepy. I slept for something
like 36 hours (with a couple 2-3 hour breaks
where I got up and sat in a chair for awhile).
Now it's Monday, I'm at work and although I
feel a bit spacey, otherwise I'm fine! I did
it, I beat Paxil. The jar of beach glass is
going to be my souvenier.
Rebecca
p.s. I have some tips you might want to add
to your tips list:
For me, the dizziness and "zaps" only
lasted a few days. After that, my worst symptom
was agitation, including a pounding heart beat,
horrible insomnia, sweating, shaking, and a
sense of terrible restlessness. This lasted
about 2 weeks during which time I could not
sleep for more than 2 or 3 hours a night. My
advice for these kinds of symptoms:
Keep yourself as cool as possible. Run
the air conditioner (or turn down the heat,
depending on the season). Drink lots of ice
water. Take cool showers. Go swimming.
You probably won't be hungry very often,
but when you do get hungry, restrict yourself
to very very light meals, e.g., a little soup
and soda crackers. Digestion will crank up your
autonomic nervous system, which is already running
in high gear. So you may end up feeling much
worse after eating. However, drink lots of water
so you don't get dehydrated.
Get as much exercise as possible. Even
if you normally hate to exercise, you may find
that going for long walks has a calming effect.
Avoid alcohol like the plague.
If you are a caffeine addict, cut back
on coffee/tea/cola as much as possible. Watch
out for non-cola soft drinks that have caffeine
in them (read the labels). Avoid herbal remedies
that say they will give you "energy"
or "stimulate the mind" or improve
"mental clarity" etc. because these
may contain stimulants like ephedra. Also avoid
any over-the-counter drugs that can stimulate
the nervous system. Many cold, allergy, and
asthma medicines contain stimulants such as
ephedrine or pseudoephedrine (Sudafed). Of course,
if you have asthma, talk to your doctor before
changing any of your medications or inhalers.
Find a hobby or project that you can
work on obsessively during those late nights
when you can't sleep.
Keep reminding yourself that this isn't
going to last forever!
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Took Paxil for 6 years. As of Jan. 16th 2003 am
Paxil free. PLEASE try this. Tapered from 20mg
to 10mg, Buy a "pill cutter" immediately!!
Cut 10 mg into quarters. Take for several weeks.
Then was prescibed 12.5mg CONTROLLED RELEASE TABLETS
and cut those pills into quarters with the pill
cutter. Would take 1/4 then wait 2 days (that
was all I could stand) Then after a few weeks,
take 1/4 pill and would wait 3 to 4 days, (all
I could stand), then it started to get better.
Could handle the withdrawal symptoms as they became
more slight and I could live with them. Stayed
on 1/4 pill every 4 to 6 days for a week or two.
Symptoms began to subside. Have not taken a Paxil
since Jan. 16, 2003 !!!! Still have slight "electrical
shocks" every now and then, but can handle
that. No night horrors, still have terrible night
sweats, thinking much clearer, can now experience
emotions, and I can now cry when something truely
moves me, and LADIES ---- this may be more than
you want to know but I can now have an orgasm
in less than a minute (it it wonderful) ---- Please
keep trying, it is worth it! Take your time. (I
still have my Paxil on hand in the horror that
symptoms return) I will pray for each of you and
keep me in your prayers also. There was a point
and time that I thought this would be impossible
to write. But I am FREE!!!!. It took me 3 months
of Paxil withdrawal HELL. I am a Certified Medical
Assistant and will always suggest to any of the
patients that I come into contact with that they
discuss with their Doctor about coming off Paxil
ASAP. Thanks for listening. |
...I
knew the withdrawal symptoms would
be a rough ride for a bit, but I was prepared
to do "whatever it takes" to be paxil-free.
So, last May, my "new" doctor started
tapering me from 30 mg. to 20 mg. which I did
for four weeks. I experienced some dizziness and
"disconnection" with my body -- an unbalanced
feeling. In June, I went from 20 mg. to 15, and
then 15 to 10 mg. July 1st, I stopped all paxil.
All of a sudden, I felt completely lethargic --
it was as if the life had been sucked out of me.
I experienced "electric shock pulses"
in my brain for a couple of weeks. And I was completely
disconnected from my body and had much trouble
with walking and balance. My doctor advised me
that while getting off paxil, I must eat 3 balanced
meals a day -- get out for a walk in the fresh
air every day. I did not do this, and I think
my withdrawal symptoms were worse because I was
not looking after myself nutritionally or physically.
Anyway, finally in mid-August, I began a 6 kilometre
walk every second day -- I started to eat 3 healthy
meals a day, and I started feeling stronger with
each week that passed. I have continued this regimen,
along with taking amino acids, multi-vitamins
and anti-oxidants and I am feeling FANTASTIC!
I feel "real" again, and I have feelings/emotions
that I can "feel". While on Paxil, I
"floated" over everything -- now, my
mind is clear and focused, my short-term memory
has improved 100%. So, rest assured, the withdrawal
symptoms do pass and it is a huge sense of relieve
to be paxil-free.
P.S. The doctor who helped me get off paxil does
not like the drug, because of the severe withdrawal
effects. He said there are other anti-depressants
that are easier to get off. BUT GETTING OFF PAXIL
IS WORTH IT AND THE WITHDRAWAL SYMPTOMS ARE TEMPORARY.
YOU CAN DO IT |
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am writing this to all of you who are either A)
contemplating the discontinuance of Paxil B) going
through bad withdrawal symptoms or C) reading
about Paxil and realizing that it is not a very
good drug to be on. Before I embark on sharing
my story with all of you, I first want to acknowledge
that it IS possible to QUIT Paxil. Some of you
may be skeptical of this comment, believe me,
I certainly was at one point in my life after
I had tried and failed numerous times to get myself
off of the drug. Honestly, if it had not been
for all of the success stories posted
throughout this wonderful web site, I probably
would have not had the courage to discontinue
Paxil. Therefore, I am indebted to each and every
individual who has shared his or her story on
this web site. Through reading the stories, I
gained knowledge, strength, and courage to brave
one of the most difficult battles I have ever
faced in my life. With that being said, I shall
begin my tale of Paxil withdrawal.
I had been on Paxil for the
past seven years to treat my social anxiety
disorder. I had tried numerous times throughout
the past two years to quit cold turkey from
my 20/mg a day dosage but did not have success.
With the encouragement of a very good friend
of mine I started to taper my dosage. I decided
to cut my daily intake from 20 mg to 10 mg.
A few days after I made the 10 mg decrease,
I began to experience a wide array of symptoms;
most noticeably, the electric shock
sensations that so many other users have reported.
In addition, I developed flu-like symptoms for
about a week after I quit.
I stayed on 10 mg for another
two weeks and then decided to cut my dosage
to 5 mg a day. This decision was made because
my body had habituated to the decrease and the
withdrawal symptoms had subsided completely.
When I made the decrease from 10 mg to 5 mg
the side effects were not as noticeable. I did
not develop any flu-like symptoms
and there was the absence of the electric
shock phenomena. Once again, I stayed
on this 5 mg a day regimen for about three weeks.
I was very excited about the
progress that I had made, but I was also very
hesitant and worried about discontinuing Paxil
altogether. I had read all of the horror stories
on the net about the hells associated with serotonin
withdrawal syndrome and how getting off of Paxil
is far more difficult than quitting any of the
other SSRIs (read Prozac, Zoloft, etc.)
because of the drugs half-life. I had also heard
that quitting Paxil altogether was synonymous
to an alcoholic ceasing to drink (cold-turkey).
With that knowledge in hand,
I decided to stop taking Paxil altogether. Within
three days, my body was craving the drug. On
day three I started the horrible withdrawal
as described by many on this web-site. I began
experiencing nightmares that seemed incredibly
real, I suffered a terrible headache throughout
the course of the day that would not let up
no matter how much aspirin I took, the muscles
in my back severely ached, I was extremely irritable,
my sense of equilibrium and balance was impaired,
I had intense insomnia as it was difficult to
get to sleep at night and I felt an exhaustion
which I would compare to infectious mononucleosis.
In addition, a few times in a day for no apparent
reason I would begin to panic for 30 seconds
or so and then I would be fine. All of the aforementioned
symptoms grew in intensity from day 3 of my
discontinuance and peaked at approximately day
18.
I have now been Paxil free for
28 days. The majority of my withdrawal symptoms
are behind me as the only ones that my body
is now exhibiting are mild muscle aches (only
in the morning), headaches, a slight feeling
of fatigue and off and on nightmares. Conversely,
I can honestly say that I now feel the best
that I have in seven years.
It is strange, as I feel as
if I now have more energy than I have ever had
before. In addition, my mind is more alert and
sharp than it ever has been and I feel as if
everything is incredibly clear. It feels as
if a heavy fog has been lifted from my life
and the sun is finally shining through. When
I listen to music, it sounds clearer and seems
to flow better, and, it sounds better than it
ever has before. I feel as if I am actually
living now and I feel as if I can experience
emotions again. I can feel and experience extreme
elation or happiness. I actually feel more emotionally
stable than I ever have and my sense of self-confidence
has greatly increased!
In addition, I have noticed
that my appetite has increased (luckily I am
not gaining any weight, in fact I think I might
be losing some weight), my vision seems to be
clearer, I seem to be able to recall things
more quickly and with more ease, and my encounters
with other people now seem to be actual interactions
instead of chores. Basically, I am happy, full
of energy and vitality, and I feel full of life.
A good quote to describe how I am feeling is
my cup runneth over.
I now feel emotionally strong
and I feel as if I am ready to take-on and handle
the world. I experience a sense of peace and
fulfillment that I havent felt in a very
long time. I seem much more interested in the
things that I used to love and I feel as if
I am now actually living.
In conclusion, it should be
known that I do not despise the makers of Paxil.
Paxil helped to give me some of the tools that
I needed to get over my social anxiety disorder.
In the same breadth, I find it very unfair that
SKB manufactured the drug without disclosing
to the public that people do experience withdrawal
symptoms upon discontinuance. Would I recommend
this drug to any of my family or friends suffering
from depression or anxiety disorders? Certainly
not!
Lastly, an excellent tool that
helped me when I was experiencing withdrawal
symptoms was to just tell myself that each day
that I was off of Paxil was another day closer
to being Paxil-Free. I also convinced
myself that I did not need drugs to help me
cope with day-to-day life. Getting off of Paxil
has been one of the most difficult things that
I have ever experienced in my 23 year old life
thus far, but, the feeling of being able to
conquer such a feat only gives me that much
more confidence. Thus, if you are reading this
and experiencing withdrawal symptoms, dont
give up, hang in there, it is tough, but trust
me, in the end, you will thank yourself that
you are Paxil-Free.
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To anyone who made read this.
I am now on day 20 without paxil. I decided
to quit after being on this medication for 6
years. In 1996 I had a terrible epidsode of
panic attacks which quickly spiraled into panic
disorder. I was placed on Paxil 20mg and it
helped me immensely. But what was meant only
to be a short term crutch to help me get through
a crisis became problematic in ways I could
never have imagined. Many of you know the drill.
I was afraid to go off the drug simply because
it had helped me so well. And I thought why
not stay with it? But after a few relapses of
panic attacks over several years I realized
that this so-called miracle drug wasn't really
helping me overcome my illness, it was masking
it and not successfully really, but it was treating
symptoms and not a cause. Depression, anxiety,
panic, etc. are all very complicated illnesses
and are probably caused by a combination of
things in our lives. So it seems unlikely that
altering one thing --which is very probably
a symptom itself and not a cause-could really
work long term. At least, that's how I see it.
I was lucky to have been introduced
to a very very competent cognitive-behavioral
therapist a few years ago, and in the past year
I also have discovered that yoga (at least a
form of Hatha called Iyengar yoga) helped me
learn to trust my body again. With hard work,
progress and relapse, including a couple of
failed attempts to quit paxil, I was ready to
quit again. Not because I was afraid of the
medication but because I didn't need it any
more. But of course there was another hurdle
because of the withdrawal symptoms, and believe
me, I have had most of the symptoms if not all
of them. I had awful nausea every day all day
long, headaches, lucid nightmares, pain, fatigue,
depersonalization, panic attacks, depression.
I also had the "less frequently reported"
symptoms of heart palpitations, "trails"
(or what they also call "delayed vision"),
numbness/tingling in my face and extremities,
LA LA LA. Oh and that "scratching"
noise too. That has been extremely annoying
as it sounds much like someone rubbing a balloon
inside my head. Or a duck quacking or something.
ANYHOW, it has been awful but it has subsided
and every day is better.
Please tell yourself to be brave and that you
are okay and you can get through it. And if
you can, listen to Frank's audio message as
I found it very comforting! Good luck to you
all and don't judge yourselves. Your symptoms
are real and it is understandable that you are
angry and afraid but you can do it.
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For
everyone out there who is wondering whether they
can get out of the paxil withdrawl hell....I am
here to say it is possible! I did it cold turkey.
I don't suggest doing it that way but my health
insurance ran out and I had no choice.
In the end it was the best
thing that every happened. I was scared at first
but I just told myself I had no choice. Once I
realized I could do that....I had the strength
to beat my panic attacks...on my own...drug free!
That was a good feeling.
That was two years ago.
I am better than ever. The electric shocks and
the dizziness will go away....I was scared that
they wouldn't but they do. Good Luck. |
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was on Paxil for 7 months when I attempted to
stop taking the drug. While taking it I experienced
tremors, restless sleep, decreased sexual sensitivity,
headaches and night sweats. When I tried to quit
I experienced severe dizziness which kept me from
doing many activities of everyday life. I lost
all hope and was brought to tears with the thought
that I would never get off this drug without spending
months being dizzy and unable to sleep. Then my
boyfriend stepped in and tried to find some advice
online where I discovered a lot of people with
my exact same symptoms. What I finally did
to help me quit Paxil without overwhelming dizziness
was to very slowly decrease my dosage while increasing
days in between of not taking it. I started taking
half a pill each day (10 mg), then half every
other day, then every 2 days, then a quarter (5
mg) every other day, then every 2 days, 3 days,
4 days, and so on. I would go as long as I could
until I started feeling dizzy, then take as little
as possible to feel normal again. Eventually I
was able to go 4-5 days with as little as 5 mg
and then quit altogether without dizziness. This
entire process took about 2 months. I'd spend
at least a week on each step down the ladder.
All my symptoms have since disappeared and I feel
normal once again. You can do it too! |
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took an accelerated approach to weaning myself
off. First, I cut from 20mg to 10 mg. Two weeks
later, went down to 5 mg. Two weeks later went
to2.5 mg. When I ran out of pills, that was it.
Let me tell you that I felt horrible. Nausea,
dizzy, sweats, shocks. All the symptoms described.
After about a month and a half, the nausea went
away. I'm back to my grumpy self but feeling better.
No more shocks and spins either. Try lots of water,
sweat it out. When you're feeling sick try a cold,
sweet drink. Maybe only a placebo but seemed to
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Thank
you for your Web site. I decided to quit taking
my 20-mg/day Paxil dosage after two years of being
on the drug. My husband and I had been discussing
pregnancy, and it had been so long since I'd had
counseling for depression, I thought it was time
to get back to a drug-free life.
I quit cold-turkey nine days ago. The symptoms
were exactly as they'd been described on your
Web site -- nausea, dizziness, "brain sloshing"
-- and vivid, epic dreams. I warned my co-workers
that any sudden illness was brought on by my withdrawal
from prescription medication and that I'd be fine
after two weeks or so.
I still get daily headaches, the dull, pounding,
pressurized skull kind. I hear odd sloshy noises
in my head, but can mostly tune them out now.
But last night I felt a sense of clarity I hadn't
felt in years, even before being on Paxil. My
brain felt clean, fresh, as if someone had dusted
it off or rubbed off the tarnish. Conversations
with my husband became interactions, not altercations,
and I felt like I could actually comprehend the
things he said to me, not just react to them.
There is a light. Many advised going off the drug
slowly, and I won't go against their advice, but
my experience was quick, dirty and worth it. I
hope others feel that sense of return to consciousness
once this extremely strong, brain-numbing drug
is out of their systems.
Anti-depressants are not evil, but they are so
new, and so misused. With hope, the future will
bring greater knowledge about the awful circumstances
that cause us to require "synapse lubricators"
so that we may feel relief from anxiety, fear
and sadness. |
| Hello
... I would like to relate to you how I successfully
withdrew, cold turkey, from a 40m per day dose
of Paxil, that I had been taking for 6 years.
It was, as many people on this site have related,
a living hell, in every sense of the word. I am
a 42 year old single mother of four children,
ages 14, 12, 8 & 7, and I am also a breast
cancer survivor. I couldn't take 2 weeks off of
work, or send my kids off to camp while I went
through the withdrawal, but I knew that going
cold turkey was the ONLY way for me ... to just
DO IT and get it over with, not draw it out into
this big, long process. I had EVERY SINGLE ONE
OF THE WITHDRAWAL SYMPTOMS listed on the "symptoms"
part of this site. The night terrors/insomnia
were the absolute worst ... to be so exhausted
that all you want to do is sleep ... finally I
would drift off, only to be awakened moments later
with a feeling of sheer terror, with vivid, frightening
images so real that I think I was actually hallucinating.
But somehow I got through. I slept with the light
on, took Valerian ( I was coming cold turkey off
Ativan & Neurontin, too) Root to help me sleep,
and tried as much as I could to pamper myself.
I am a classical musician, so I tried to immerse
myself as much as possible in the music I loved.
I took 4 showers a day to deal with the unbelievable
sweating, and just walked around VERY slowly are
carefully to deal with the vertigo. And I lay
in bed as much as I could, reminding myself that
for every day I could just hang in there and not
go back on the Paxil, I was one day closer to
having the drug OUT of my system. A few close
friends that knew what I was going through came
over and helped out with the kids a little (hint:
Paxil withdrawal & 6 year olds having tantrums
do not mix real well, it kind of had the effect
of nails being raked across my brain). My Mom
came over -- I handed her a printed-out list of
all the withdrawal symptoms, she read them, and
promptly did some of my dishes and laundry. My
hint to other Moms, especially single Moms, who
are quitting Paxil cold turkey. Forget about cooking
fancy dishes for a few weeks. Buy paper cups,
paper plates, paper bowls & plastic silverware,
stock up on the Fruit Loops, Cocoa puffs, bread,
peanut butter & milk, and don't worry, your
kids will survive without their broccoli while
you are experiencing the worst of your withdrawal.
They might even enjoy themselves and wish Mommy
would let them eat Pop-tarts for dinner ALL the
time (-: And let me tell you, those %$#@*%* electric
shocks. I really could have done without those,
thank you very much. Well, I could go on and on,
but let me suffice it to say that I am now doing
quite well. It has been four weeks since my last
Paxil tablet, and I no longer fall asleep before
the children at night. I have my old energy back,
as well as a some of my old anxieties, but am
in general feeling wonderful. I used to drink
6 - 8 cups of coffee a day just to stay awake
...the paxil made me so drowsy! ... I now have
only one cup of caffeinated coffee in the morning,
something I thought I could NEVER manage to do!!
I am drinking green tea (both hot and iced!),
eating better, doing slow meditative breathing
exercises, and making sure I take a walk every
day. When I originally went on Paxil, I gained
40 lb., and couldn't lose it, no matter WHAT I
did. Since going off the Paxil, I have lost 10
lb. without even trying. My entire system seems
to be functioning much better. Well, life is not
all a bowl of cherries, of course, but at least
now I feel like I have a chance of trying to get
through it without being hopelessly addicted to
a drug that, YES, did help me immensely at one
point in time, but was no longer needed. This
Paxil site helped immensely as I was going through
the worst of things. Just to know that I wasn't
alone, and wasn't losing my mind, was such a blessings.
When I first saw the complete list of withdrawal
symptoms, I cried tears of joy, to simply know
that what I was experiencing was NOT all in my
head, and that there was light at the end of the
tunnel. So there is my story. I hope that some
part of it will help someone, somewhere, who is
trying to get off of Paxil cold turkey. Hang in
there. It gets better. I'm doing well,
and I am PAXIL-FREE!!!! |
Hello,
I started on Paxil in March of 1999 after a severe
mental and physical breakdown. After about 5 months
of being on 20mg a day, I decide I was feeling
fine and that I was going to wean myself off in
a period of 2 weeks. About 3-4 days after I stopped
taking Paxil, the severe symptoms began-- extreme
dizziness, extreme nausea, headaches, crying,
sweating, depression, electric shock feelings
all through my body, and that very annoying "swish-swish"
in my head as I would move my eyes around (would
occur with eyes open OR shut). I, with the advice
of my doctor, went back on Paxil. The symptoms
were terrible and 5 months was not enough.
It's now July 2001, and I am 2 weeks off
of Paxil after taking a FULL YEAR to wean myself
off. Paxil is a very powerful drug that can definitely
help a person when they truly need it. But, you
must be prepared for the side-effects while on
the drug, as well as the withdrawal symptoms when
you are ready to come off it. When I went on Paxil
I weighed 125lbs., at 5' 7". I have been
thin my whole life. While on the Paxil, I steadily
gained weight and have topped off at 160lbs. That's
a lot of weight to gain. Other people that I know
on Paxil have also gained a good bit of weight.
The final dose that I was on was only 5mg (split
20mg pill in quarters). And because I had taken
a full year to wean myself down to 5mg, I, along
with my doctor did not think that I would experience
the side-effects again. WE WERE WRONG!!!! The
past week and a half have been just horrible.
I had all the same withdrawal symptoms again.
I could not be in a vertical position very long,
the dizziness and nausea were that bad. But I
have toughed it out, although the swish-swish
feeling in my eyes is still there. This will disappear
eventually.
My advice to anyone wanting to get off of Paxil
is not to rush it!!! If you can take a full year
and wean yourself off---DO IT. When the time comes
to finally get off, take two weeks off from work
(you'll need it), and be prepared to spend a lot
of time in bed. All the feelings and physical
symptoms that you will feel are normal, we have
all felt them. You're not going crazy. It's drug
withdrawal. Once you begin to feel better, slowly
begin an exercise routine, even if it's just walking.
Exercise is wonderful for combating depression
and anxiety!!!!! It, along with good nutrition,
bring the body into balance. Drink a lot of water!
When the Fall arrives, consider buying the special
lights to treat SAD (seasonal affective disorder).
This is especially important if you live in the
north like I do (Buffalo). Good Luck. You can
get off of Paxil when the time is right! Elizabeth |
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My name is Jan I am a 42 year
old man from Denmark. I write you because I
want you to know that your site has been my
“bible” as I went off paroxetine 2 1/2 weeks
ago… It is a very impressive site … good stuff.
My physician did not mention any of the withdrawal
symptoms at all. So if it hadn’t been for your
site, I would have been very scared, as symptoms
were very heavy. I had electric impulses jogging
around in my body. Could not move my eyes, without
feeling as if my breast/heart jumped around.
(very unpleasant). And many more of the symptoms
you write about. I am going to show your site
to my physician in order to show her what not
only I have been through but many others. I
had moments where I had to go to bed just crying
because I felt like if I had a stroke or something
even worse. I still suffer from some minor spasms
in my right hand and problems in the middle
of the day with concentration. But overall I
am fine again … And very tired
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feel it is so important to share my victory with
everyone. I too felt as though I was a prisoner
to this drug. Several attempts to wean myself
were unsuccessful. To make matters worse, every
time I spoke with my doctor or his nurse, they
would say "oh really, we just have not heard
of anyone having so much difficulty getting off
of this drug." Truly, I thought I was going
insane. It was so eye-opening to learn that I
was not nuts and that many people have gone through
the horrible side effects. Well, it took 9 long
months, but I was determined. The slow progression
was the success story. I went from 20 mg to 15
mg switching dsg. every other day for 3 months.
Then 15mg to 10mg switching dsg. every other day
for 3 months. Then finally 10mg to 5 mg switching
dsg. every other day for 3 months. When I got
down to five mg. I maintained that for about 3
weeks. Went to 5 mg. every other day for 2 weeks.
Finally stopped. I held onto that bottle for one
month before I had the guts to flush the Paxil
I had left. Even after being off. I have challenges,
but I am not going back on. I will find something
else. You see, I have Multiple Sclerosis. The
chances of me needing to be on an antidepressant
are great. However, I don't ever want to go through
this type of torment again. Good luck to everyone.
God Bless." |
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